so SiCk

im sick-ive got the flu-feel like shit

projeCt mE

iTs jUst mE - mY proJect - Miss G



My new name is 'NARc' as in short for Narcissist.

Definition:: "Narcissism is the pattern of characteristics and behaviors which involve infatuation and obsession with one's self to the exclusion of others and the egotistic and ruthless pursuit of one's gratification, dominance and ambition. In everyday use outside the field of psychology, the word generally refers to people who just are inordinately fond of themselves, without the pathological connotations."

That is:: "someone in love with themselves"

My new phoGraphy project is ME. but look out 4 my one that ive just started along side this one-entiled "sunny dagenham"-will post photos soon.

Advice from gRanny

she told me:

because i don't do a sport i must be soft
i should do karate to fend the boys off

if i use the side of my hand
i can chop them on the nose

the sight of blood
would make them go cold

if that don't work-
you could upper cut,
right there-
under the gut

but i should try and find a boyfriend
preferably a nice one

full st.lucian-
but it's hard to find one

cover up your back
you'll get a cold in your kidney

god bless-wrap up
and i'll see you next weekend

[i love my granny, get well soon.xxx]

RUNforestRUN

My nearest death excperience happened tonight-i believe myself lucky not to have incured a minor heart attack

OK- tonight for some reason i fancied a jog-my first time ever coz im not into exercise in such-except doing the dance mat or dancing around in general.

WELL was going 4 a jog and my dad decided to join me-

[BACK GROUND KNOWLEDGE-my dad is the fittest person i know he runs/cycles/plays cricket/blackbelt in karate-and is overall fit guy-doesnt smoke or drink]

ANYWAY we go jogging/light run

we run a mile-my heart is thumping

then we turn back
aFter a few minutes i get pins and needles in my head-and i think one of my lungs has collapsed

so i ask my dad to give me a piggy back the rest of the half a mile or so - HE LAUGHS

"WALK" he says while he does some side-step skipping-that pro fitness people do while waiting for the slow coaches to catch up

THEN I THINK "i can do this"

so i start to run again-i give myself motivation in my head:
YOU CAN DO THIS-COME ON

AND THE OTHER VOICE IS LIKE:
JUST STOP! ITS OK - YOU R GOING TO KILL YOURSELF

got to the library and thought "not long now"

then i went slightly deaf as the blood was pumping furiously through my ears

went tingly all over and thought-THIS IS IT

at the sweet shop now-and i knew if my dad wasnt there i would've just laid down on the pavement and try to get a full breath of air instead of the micro panting i was doing.

BUT HAD TO SAVE FACE-IM HIGHLY COMPETITIVE

legs felt ready to buckle

but i was finally home-had a cold shower-where i almost threw up TWICE and its taken approx. 20 minutes for my heart to stop trying to escape my chest

spoke to mark where he said:

"RUNNING IS JUST STUPID ! ESPECIALLY CAUSE YOU HAVE A COLD. BUT IN GENERAL ITS JUST STUPID-UNLESS YOUR RUNNING FOR A BUS OR FROM A TIGER!"

havIn a rant

OK-WHEN IS THE SUN COMING BACK?
ITS LIKE 3PM AND I HAVE TO PUT THE LIGHTS ON?!! like whats that about!

Your Just a WindowCLEANER

Now there i am getting ready for uni at 10am-running slightly late for my 11am lecture.


But anyway-im there in the mirror applying my facial enhancement [I.E. MAKE-UP], and dancing to my new Jamie Foxx album [courtesy of mr. bajade] so there i am doing the im all alone dance when i see what i thought was a bird or something at the window-i turn to look-

BUT its not any bird-NO IT A BIG FACE IN MY WINDOW!!


OK I SCREAM-i mean REALLY LOUD-horrOR scEne LIKE. So that he could hear it through both panes of glass of the double-glazed window.


Mum said i was lucky to not knock him off his ladder. THE WINDOw CLEANER THAT IS.


i opened the window to apologize and he said not to be scared he was just practising his new dance "OH HAHA VERY FNUNY"-i thought


closed the window and carried on wiv my make-up application- I MEAN I COULDDA BEEN FUCKING OR ANYTHING!!