I loves you Porgy

by Nina Simone

I recently watched an interview of one of my favourite musicians Muhsinah, in which she spoke about songs that made her cry. Then I thought about the only song that made the burst into tears upon the first time hearing. I can remember exactly where I was how I was feeling and that song will never fail to touch my heart.

"I loves you Porgy" by Nina Simone
First heard one night while waiting in the car while Jonathan used the cash point in Ladbroke Grove Sainsburys. His iPod was set to shuffle and this song just started to play, and I just started to cry. I think its one of the most loveiest song ever and touches my heart for unknown reasons.

"Now the drugs don't work
They just make you worse
But I know I'll see your face again"

The Verve

Word to your mother!!

Now its 4.24am, and I'm not in the US or somewhere far away and exotic in another time zone neither am I just arriving home from a fun night out.

No I have become an insomniac. restless anxious and short tempered and did I mention anxious, all due to my evil new antibiotic friend Clarithromycin.

It started that I couldn't get to sleep, then I couldn't wake up, then waking in the early hours of the morning- and now I'm full blown insomniac.

Its not cool - I'm thinking should I watch another movie? seems as the first one didn't work its not a great idea, humm lay and wait for my brain to get bored- that could never happen my mind is constantly thinking about no less than three things at any one time. Or maybe I should just pretend it's the middle of the day, do some ironing have some food, write a blog. I'm thinking cause its making me act craaazy I should probably limit my interaction with other people....damage limitation. Just so I still have friends when I'm up and well (just an idea).

This is going out to all my fellow sleep deprived, dream dodgers!

Szjerdene:

Think it Through

Szjerdene is not only an absolutely beautiful person inside and out she also has true beauty living in her voice. Her new single 'Think it through" is wonderfully lovely- so I had to share. Listen to it below and download for free HERE.

My favourite lyrics are:
Several thousand people
Only you that I had in mind
Untie all your burdens and lay them all to rest here
I didn't get the chance to grow up with you
But that doesn't mean that I know less about you

Monday's Lunch

For lunch today I made a poached egg and chicken breast with salad and mayo on brown bread sarnie.
It was so sexy it made me sleep.

Kanye West "All of the Lights" Vid

I don't only see all of the lights, I see all of your breasts! Go Rihanna on a feminist flex- throwing her bra to the wind....after all they always say breast is best!

Reading:

Aaron Bondaroff

My Life in T-Shirts

I have just finished reading the Autobiography of Aaron Bondaroff, it was originally hand-screened by himself onto 100 white t-shirts to form the exhibition 'My Life In T-Shirts'. Later photographs of all the t-shirts are taken and made into 1000 copies of his book. Below being one of them, leant to me by CDA. A-ron as he is best known is hailed as a sort of underground cultural genius also for his super rep, input in the infamous 'Supreme' brand and also founder of the 'aNYthing' brand. Its a great read of downtown living in NYC.

"Race wasn't a issue. Money wasn't a issue. We were all one color and that color was character."

Aaron Bondaroff

POEM: Forever Damned by Anon

After awhile you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn’t mean possession
and company doesn’t mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
and presents aren’t promises and you begin to accept
your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads today
because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.
After awhile you learn that even sunshine
burns if you get too much so you plant your
own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn

I always knew I wasn't that good a student

Written by a "Guest" on a site called Damned Love (Community of Lovers)
The site is full of confessions, stories and poems from people in love, out of love, hurt by love or in a love conundrum. I'm a fellow lover so found some rather interesting reads.

AirVent

Red Velvet Cup Cakes

Recipe from The Hummingbird Bakery Cookbook

Google Love!

Happy Valentines day to all my past and present loves and lovers!

Being stuck indoors recovering from my op means I haven't been as creative and sneaky as I usually am on valentines day to get secret presents and cards out to those I love, lust or just straight up appreciate.

This year my favourite thing about valentines day has to be all the heart shaped food- the catering industry has been getting real creative to cash in this year!

Krispy Kremes: Love Hearts and Pizza Express: Heart Dough balls

Welcome to Romford

Is a great new channel 4 fly on the wall series where they place a camera in min cabs from Romford's notorious A1 minicab firm and present to you Romford through the journeys of the late night customers of their back seats.

A little blurb from C4::
"The life of a cabbie is never dull. On a Friday night, the drivers of A1 Taxis get all sorts of people in the back of their cabs, from a young couple on the way back from their 'wedding on the cheap' to a man found lying in the middle of the road. A couple who have just met on the internet, jealous couples, reunited couples and couples who can't wait to get home. Plus desperate young men, lonely old men and everyone else between."

Defo a must watch- provides a glimpse into the lives of real Essex unlike the unwatchable "The only way is Essex"

7.30pm Friday 4th Feb Channel 4 or watch now on 4OD

This morning the toilet whispered my name

I woke up this morning and after flushing the toilet it gently whispered my name. I told it to shut up knowing it was just one of the many side effects of the cocktail of drugs I'm currently on for pain relief and infection fighting following my recent appendectomy. I have always had a macabre humour, taking avid enjoyment in the light reading the drug side effect section provides- it makes you question when your symptoms are really worth it.

Currently I have been prescribed the following daily diet:
2 x Paracetamol 4 times a day
2 x Tramadol 4 times a day
1 x Co-amoxiclav 3 times a day
1 x Metronidazole 3 times a day

After reading the side effects of the above drugs I realised that most of what I thought were post-op side effects were just drug induced craziness. My Mum informed me that the highly addictive drug Tramadol was such a drug of choice I could actually make money from my left overs by "selling them at the end of the road"! (good to know).
Please find the fun trip I've been on for the past week:

Co-amoxiclav

• a rash on your skin or itching, swelling of your eyelids, lips or face, skin lumps or hives, your skin or the whites of your eyes turn yellow
• sudden wheeziness or tightness of the chest or breathing problems
• anxiety, confusion, sleepiness or any other mental disturbances
• severe diarrhoea or bleeding

Tramadol

• Some people may feel sick, tired, sleepy or dizzy. They may vomit or sweat, become fluxed complain of getting a headache, hallucinations, sleep disturbance, nightmares or pins and needles. They may have diarrhoea or constipation or suffer a loss of appetite. These side effects are usually mild and not troublesome. (oh really!!)
• When some people stop taking Tramadol capsules they get withdrawal symptoms. They may feel agitated, anxious, nervous or shaky. They may be hyperactive and have difficulty sleeping. these effects usually disappear after a few days.

Metronidazole

• stomach pain or upset, feeling sick, diarrhoea, sore mouth, unpleasant taste, dry mouth, furred tongue, and loss of appetite. Very occasional inflammation of the pancreas, indicated by severe pain in the abdomen back, may occur
• effects on your nervous system have have been reported very rarely which include drowsiness, dizziness, headache, speech difficulties, difficultly in walking or poor co-ordination, shaking, seeing hearing or feeling things that are not there, confusion, double vision, short sightedness