27 March 2011

Movie meet the real world: Pearl Harbor

Today I watched Pearl Harbor again on the telly and realised it needed a reality check

OK the story goes:
Its 1941 in the army base of Pearl Habor, Hawaii
Boy meets girl, they fall in love
WAR
Boy dies

Girl and dead boy's best friend fall in love
Boy returns (SURPRISE he's not dead)
Girl now preggers with boy's bestfriend's baby (uh oh scandal! Jeremy Kyle ish)
Girl chooses boy's bestfriend over boy

WAR
Boy lives - bestfriend dies (real death not the fake kind)
Boy returns to marry girl who loves dead bestfriend and raise best friends bastard child

REALITY:

War
Boy lives - bestfriend dies (real death not the fake kind)
Boy returns and tells girl to sod off, she picked the wrong guy he's no runners up prize, who told her to go fall in love and get pregnant with his bestfriend of all people, and so damn fast- he was only dead for 3 months!

I've realised my only issue with honesty

Once you are honest with someone, any future action, behaviour or words are influenced by your honesty.

I wish I could just be honest with someone and they would carry one as if they never knew.

Honesty for me is like the fizz in coke; if I inhibit, control or hold in any emotion or thoughts in it builds up inside of me and I feel like a shaken bottle of coke, and eventually the bubbles start to break free, its like I have truth turrets, and no matter how much I try and hold it down it will start to slip out through a number of ways like Freudian slips or small annoying repetitive behaviours- then I'll just start acting plain old weird because I'll be busy internally fighting my natural urges or truths while at the same time double thinking my every move so to contain the honesty urges.

So for my own health of mind if I cant just be honest I have to remove myself because being inhibited is just hard work- its exhausting- its like my mind is an over active screaming child and control is an adult with both hands of its mouth while pinning down its wriggling body with its weight.

Self control and inhibition is not me

But at the same time I just don't like to spoil good vibes or a perfect moment with honesty - but without honesty would that make the very foundation of that perfect moment a lie?

24 March 2011

"I Dance alone when I'm at home, 'cause I like the way it feels"

I like the way it feels by Carol Riddick

23 March 2011

One of my favourite places

Through my life I have accumulated a handful of favourite places, mostly in London but also some abroad. There's no real reason why they are so special they just do something to me. I try and only take special people to my special places but because I'm still ill I decided to visit one of them today and it made me feel great- so I'm going to share my captured happiness with you.

22 March 2011

CDA rocking my ray bans

21 March 2011

I was better at being a child than I am being an adult

I think it's because I only had 18 years to make the most of child-dome whereas this adult stage goes on forever it's like your virginity once you loose it there's no going back. Unless you count being old a distinction from being an adult, I suppose when your elderly you can plead diminished responsibility then they basically get promoted back to child-dome.

Think about it children and old people can get away with so many things and it's cool cause their old or they're a baby and "don't know any better" I list:

Wetting themselves in public
Not washing themselves
Saying inappropriate things
Stating the obvious (children usually say "I don't like you" old people say stuff like "she's fat")
They don't work

Now as an adult all of the above are frowned upon as antisocial, irresponsible behaviour, but at the beginning and end of life anything goes. So enjoy the bread part of this sandwich we call life cause the meaty filling is fucked.

20 March 2011

Boredom doesn't suit me, so I never wear it

19 March 2011

Movie Review: Norwegian Wood

I went to see Norwegian wood because sometimes you know unknowingly that a movie is for you. I hadn't seen the trailer or heard any reviews I saw the poster guessed it was a foreign film and was well on it. I always said if I had to be another race it would be Japanese because they are so highly sensitive yet ridiculously reserved. They feel love deep, and after watching many Japanese love stories I believe they have no limit for love.

This story is no exception. Its a complex story of the life of a man who experiences the ups downs highs lows and various other painful treats love and relationships provide. Its full on all or nothing viewing. And its Japanese so rather weird too. But life is weird so whateves.

I have been extremely vague because I want you to seee it but don't want to spoil it.
I left the cinema rather bemused and speechless; it touched a nerve for me, reminding me of passed loves, lost love and the deep internal ache of grief.
A Wonderfully beautiful movie, I want to watch all over again.

18 March 2011

Quote of the week:

Mike Tyson

Asked on an American chat show how he transformed his physique from bloated to a svelte fighting-weight, he said:

"I became a vegan. I lost like 140lbs. I always thought if you did cocaine you stayed skinny. I didn't know you'd turn into a fat crackhead. And there's nothing like a fat crackhead!"
source: Evening standard Friday 18th March 2011